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[Emo knows that, logically, there's nothing really awful going on here. His mask is gone - so what? Go to bed, sleep through the day, call in sick to work, it'll be fine after the virus wears off. It has to be a virus too because he doesn't just misplace his eyes. But there are sounds in his house and it's a shitty place with shitty locks and what if the virus has nothing to do with the sounds? What if there's - what if someone's in here and he can't see so he can't fight them off and what if they lock him in a closet and burn the goddamned place down or something? He doesn't know what people might do to him and that's the worst part.

At least he can maybe help out Kirk, and then not focus on this, but shit, he can't just wander around without the goddamned mask because that'll put everyone off their fucking lunch. Dinner. God it's so early in the morning, he could just go to sleep -

He struggles out of his room, moves through the living room by memory and reaches the kitchen, groping around for a towel and throwing it over his face before collapsing into a chair - or, misplacing the chair and instead collapsing to the floor.] Fuck!

Date: 2009-10-22 07:47 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] yeswedo.livejournal.com
Don't drag him into this. [Mostly because Jim was still worried that he wasn't okay because even if he was as pissed as he said he was, if he was playing the 'I'm a human with emotions' card with Jim, he would have at least commented to that accidental video post. Probably. He sat back in the couch, trying to collect his thoughts on Emo's situation and get off of the thought of how concerned he was about... all of his other friends.] And, I know. I believe you when you say you didn't know, and you're serving your time.

Date: 2009-10-22 07:58 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] yeswedo.livejournal.com
I wouldn't "flounce" on you right now, Emo. Period. You need me. [You're the only one who does and I need to be needed.]

Date: 2009-10-22 08:11 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] yeswedo.livejournal.com
He'd get jealous and kill you, and then I'd feel bad. [There was a smile on his face because it was remembering 'the good times' before he had fucked up every relationship he had except for this one.]

Date: 2009-10-22 08:18 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] yeswedo.livejournal.com
[And all Jim had was nothing. It was hard not to mention the jab he felt at that comment, so instead he joked it off. Because, that was what he did best.] I already complimented his hair once this week, twice would be too far. Besides, from what I hear, his girlfriend's just as crazy as him.

Date: 2009-10-22 08:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] yeswedo.livejournal.com
I'd have to have Bones check him out to be sure, but he showed me that he can heal. I guess if you think hard about it, [which Jim wasn't planning on doing] it could extend to keeping him from getting drunk, too.

Date: 2009-10-22 08:30 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] yeswedo.livejournal.com
[He paused, and the realization that his entire crew just died hit him like a train and he had to try his damndest to hold it together.] ...Emo, I don't think I'm going to make it to your party.

Date: 2009-10-22 08:37 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] yeswedo.livejournal.com
Sorry. [It was muttered, he tried not to let Emo's words get to him because fuck he was better than this, he couldn't just let himself go. He'd had a life he was perfectly happy with - mostly, okay, no, that was a lie. The point was that he had a life before Star Fleet and he'd have a life after so he had nothing to bitch about. It was his own fuck up and he'd deal with it on his own.] I don't really think talking will do anything about it.

Date: 2009-10-22 08:47 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] yeswedo.livejournal.com
If I wanted to talk about what happened, I would have seen one of the dozen shrinks Star Fleet offered. [Fuck. He shouldn't have mentioned that he'd neglected to see a shrink about the incident whatsoever. Probably had something to do with his 'strongly suggested' resignation, come to think of it.]

Date: 2009-10-22 08:55 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] yeswedo.livejournal.com
I said I don't want to fucking talk about it! [He was shouting. That wasn't a good way to prove you didn't need to talk about something. Fuck.]

Date: 2009-10-22 08:58 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] yeswedo.livejournal.com
[Jim tried not to get angry. He really did, but that was just taking it too far. He got to his feet.] Good news is, you don't have any monsters under your bed. Bad news is, I'm done looking. I'm out.

Date: 2009-10-22 09:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] yeswedo.livejournal.com
I'm not your family, I don't owe you shit. Maybe if you weren't such a dick I wouldn't be considering it in the first place. Besides, it's not like I don't have anywhere else to go. I've got a fucking family too, you know. In Iowa. They'd be happy to have me back from Star Fleet. [The fact that this wasn't true almost had him in tears. But, Emo couldn't see that, so the lie was in tact and that was all that mattered.]

Date: 2009-10-22 09:27 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] yeswedo.livejournal.com
[He hadn't told him because they hadn't talked to him since he joined. He hadn't told them because he hadn't even told them where he was going when he left four year ago. He hadn't told them because he was ashamed of himself and he wasn't ready to crawl back yet. Without thinking, he lashed out - took a step and delivered a right hook to Emo's fucked up jaw.]

Shut up! You don't know shit about me or my family or my goddamn ship, so just shut up! They're all dead because of me I'm not about to go fucking preach to the world about what a fuck up I am.

You don't know what it's like to have to crawl back while you're a fucking pariah for surviving a tragedy just like the one your dad became a hero dying in. You don't know!

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